Teacup times

I am at the Teacup, doing who knows what, drinking some kind of Mountain Something Green Tea...which is delicious by the way, no honey needed, feeling like today has been a waste of sorts.

FACT: One of the employees here is wearing silver nailpolish, and reminds me sharply of Stefon from Weekend Update on Saturday Night Live.



Conversation going on directly behind me:

"He's never been kissed before...so he just kind of looked at me like 'oh my gosh I just got my first kiss' and then he kissed me back...then he texted me when I was at home and said...'that was my first kiss and I'm glad I got to share it with you." uhhhh dear Teacup please turn up the music I don't want to be an unwilling participant of this conversation.


Current song playing: You Raise Me Up but not by Josh Groban. Pretty sure this is on one of those Foundation for a Better Life commercials which makes me cry.



Yes, even as I previewed this commercial oh-so-quietly in the middle of the Teacup, it made me tear up.

Even though today seems wasted, directionless, and vaguely depressing, I must admit that the pure, clean taste of this green tea is just what I needed. Other things that I need: exercise, food, and a job, but let's look past these stressors to the present. I am warm and content and should really be getting on with my homework...

help.

We have the technology.

I need to re-establish healthy sleep habits.

I don't recognize when I am tired anymore. Honestly. I stay up until 2 feeling fairly awake, then sleep until 10 and wonder why I wasted my morning. I used to have great sleep habits: in bed by 10 and awake at 6, it was glorious. I hate wasting perfectly good daylight, so good sleep habits are important to me.

I am literally here talking myself into sleep. Yes, Heaven, you are tired. Your eyes have a heavy feeling: this is tired. Your mind is quieting down, and moving slowly. This is also tired.

It is 11:41. Goal: be in bed at/before midnight. GO!

It's back.

 A photo of a previous lethargic experience: I was at a math workshop for my work. Borrriiiiing.

I am again feeling very lethargic lately. I think a string of bad habits has to do with it. Bad habits such as:

-Staying awake until 2 am watching VH1 and E!
-Sleeping in until 9:30, because I have class at 10:30 at the earliest.
-Not showering at night. (Showering makes me relaxed, not refreshed, so I enjoy night showers. Plus I like to go to sleep clean).
-Not grocery shopping, even though I got back to Seattle 5 days ago and have nothing in my pantry but Top Ramen.
-Eating nothing but Top Ramen and Tully's pastries. No nutritional value whatsoever.
-Refusing to unpack and put away the items I took back from California.

I hope today to break this cycle of laziness. I hope. I better. The quarter has started and it's going to be a busy one, so I need to stay on top of it. Things I will do today in order to be more proactive:

-Make sure I look cute when I go to work, so I feel more awake/confident/like a functioning human being.
-Purchase food for dinner, and perhaps a movie? What I mean to say is, I will make definite plans for the evening, instead of just bumming around doing nothing until 2 am. If I have plans (even if the plans are, "be in bed by 11"), I won't have room to just waste time.
-Unpack my duffel bag and backpack, and tidy up my bed.

I just wish my work would stop scheduling me to work closing shifts so much...I get off at 10 o'clock (again) tonight, and with the Saturday bus schedule, there's no way that I'll get home before 10:45...sigh.

I will have to just take my own advice, and do as I said to a homeless drunk man at the bus stop one evening, "You just gotta ramble on." (He really liked my advice by the way).

a mess

For the past few weeks, I have been extremely lethargic. This post a a challenge to myself: DO SOMETHING. Then, you get the privilege to write about it. Or just feel good. Now, go.

edit-
As of 4:14 I have washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, swept, cleaned the dining table/living room, washed & dried my clothes, taken out the trash/recycling, "got ready" (which means put on makeup to look decent & blow dry your hair), and looked up fonts online.

That isn't a whole lot of activity, but it is more than anything I have done this week combined.

What I have been doing instead of homework, and basic housekeeping: Eating. Chocolate.

My work has had numerous amounts of seasonal chocolate on sale, as much as 90% off. Being that I get 10% off food products in addition to the sale price, I have been purchasing an unholy amount of sweets. It is presumed that for the past 4 weeks, 90% of my diet consists of chocolate or chocolate based products (this is a rough estimate).

First, I went through a bag of Valentines Day themed Lindor Truffles. Bethany and Jordan later surprised me with flowers and a heart shaped box filled with more Lindor Truffles.

Next, I purchased Tim Tams from my work, and have perfected the infamous Tim Tam Slam.

The heart-shaped box of Ghiradelli Squares (again, from Valentines day) went on sale for 75% off, so I bought 2.

Finally, I have been consuming large amounts of Nutella on toast.

The funny thing is, I used to not even have a huge sweet tooth. I used to prefer "actual meals" to desserts and candy. I recently discovered how chocolate really is a method of self-medication. I know this is bizzare and demented but it is so true, and so delicious.